When I first started to learn photography I was amazed at how emotional it was for me. It was a way for me to tap into my artistic nature, a way to express myself, and all the while I could share that with people I cared about, the feelings that an image brought to mind for me, the way I felt when I looked at a photograph I had taken. It came so easily to me, to share that, and that in and of itself baffled me a bit. Anyone who knows me know that I’m loud, I’m wild, I’m crazy, I’m goofy, I love to joke. However, anyone that truly knows me will also tell you that I’m not very good with “feelings.” I am a VERY emotional person. I just don’t show it.
You want to cry on my shoulder? Bring it! I will love and nurture and listen all day long. You want me to cry on your shoulder??? Nah, but thanks though!!
Why am I telling you this?
Because it’s important to me. That’s why 🙂 And because I want to let you into my brain for a moment (better hang on, it’s wild in here,) and let you see how much this industry means to me.
There is an emotional roller coaster that goes on with a photography session for me. I see myself in pregnant mothers, I remember the struggle to have a baby and the AMAZING feeling that it was when I finally got to feel that first kick after years of thinking it would never happen. I see myself in the mothers of newborns, tired (okay…exhausted) but SO. IN. LOVE.
I remember my newborn when I hold your baby.
I remember my wedding day when I’m scanning through your wedding gallery
I remember the amazing moment when my husband proposed as I’m watching you look at your future husband during an engagement session.
I remember that terrified/excited/proud tug of war that goes on when you see your baby growing up so fast in front of your eyes.
Because you want time to freeze—-but at the same time you are SO excited about the prospect of what they’ll become.
So how’s THAT for sharing some emotion? I guess I AM capable, right??
All joking aside…that’s all the truth. I’m known to cry like a baby while I put together your slideshow for a session reveal, and I have wiped away a few tears while I’m sitting in the corner while you watch it for the first time.
It’s important that I tell you this because I want you to know—all of these things I’ve told you in this post? That’s what I want for you, and that’s why I do this. I want you to feel that way when you look at your images. I want you to feel everything you felt when you first met your new baby, when you said “I do” and when you said “YES!” to that proposal. Because that feeling is amazing-and you deserve it. The need to share that feeling with others, and to let them feel it for themselves is the reason that I do what I do. Because having tangible memories is so precious to me. I’ve missed out on that on a lot of things, but what I have I cherish with everything in me.
I just want you to know all of this, and I want you to know how grateful I am to those of you who have allowed me into a part of your lives to document your memories. Because at the end of the day that’s really all we have.
And most importantly, I want you to know that that moment-that tiny little moment when you first see your pictures, or I show you a peek at the back of the camera-and I see it-I see that look, I see those tears, or that deep breath that you take when you see an image that touches your heart—-That’s it. That’s what I live for, that’s why I do this. And I adore every one of you for allowing me to give you such an amazing gift-and for letting me continue to do something so AMAZING as a “job.”
Much love, ❤